"Alec. If I gave you the impression I had accepted the idea of your death I can only apologize. I..."

““Alec. If I gave you the impression I had accepted the idea of your death I can only apologize. I tried to, I thought I had - and yet still I pictured having you for fifty, sixty more years. I thought I might be ready then to let you go. But it’s you, and I realize now that I won’t be any more ready to lose you then than I am right now. Which is not at all.””

- Magnus Bane, City of Fallen Angels (via hpandotherdrugsss)